Seeing Your Blind Spots on the Spiritual Journey

It’s not linear…spiritual growth happens in it’s own unique way, cycles of moving through things, feeling like you’ve ‘made it’, then the next wave of something coming up to be processed, the next evolution. It’s about us constantly moving in and out of balance. I think it’s important to share this as many people including myself feel frustrated on the spiritual path of “hey I did some work, I though I was done, why am I feeling like this”. Yep been there! I had a mentor for 7 years to help me through it, and even now call on teachers and guides when I need to.

The tricky thing about spiritual work is our blind spots. We can fool ourselves into thinking we’re doing everything right. But sometimes it’s superficial, and again I don’t mean this in a bad way, but we create a shiny spiritual ego.

We “try” so hard, too hard, and spirituality is not about trying. It’s filled with huge paradoxes. It’s not like a business goal that we can fix our mindset too and know we can ‘crush it’ in 6 months. Spirituality does not work like that. It’s not about being perfect, it’s not about achieving, or letting go. It’s about being. This when written can sound like crazy nonsense, but its the essence of meditation and then you bring that into life. There are ups and downs that you can no control over. When you get ‘enlightened’ these don’t stop. What changes is your capacity to “be” through it all. 

If we’re not solid in our being, every time a new wave of growth comes, our spiritual ego can fall apart and crack, and without feeling connected to our being, we feel empty. 

I’ve been there enough to know. And whilst i’m not enlightened i have had the experience of going through an ‘ego crises’ and my being radiating strong enough to get me through this - a dark night of the soul. 

So know that wherever you are on your journey, waves will keep coming. It’s that you have a peak experience in meditation or a retreat and then it’s all done. Those peak experiences are glimpses for us to keep going. A small taste of truth. The fact that afterwards we often experience a harsh “contraction” is part of the universal game. We expand, we contract, we play hide and seek with the divine. 

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